November 16, 2011

So today is my mom's second post-death birthday.  I'm in a much different place than I was at this time last year.  This time, I kept forgetting the day was coming instead of having it looming over me.  I look at this as a good sign - like my grief program really has helped me bring the emotional & logical pieces of my mom's death together.  I've thought of my mom today, but it's not a very sad thing.  I feel a lot lighter today.  And even though my kids were not on their best behavior at dinner, it was still good to see my dad out at a restaurant tonight and mark the day in a little way.  I didn't go to the cemetary today and that felt ok, too.  I do hope that wherever Mom is, her day was great.  I still miss her, but I feel better.